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This morning in the wee hours of a sleepless night, I got up to work on my mid-term and the unthinkable happened. The results of this is so devastating I feel leaving DA, SA, and FA for next six weeks until this semester is done is the only option I have to catch up. I cannot have any distractions. I have already had my DS taken away from me and my PC does not have the capacity to hold any games on it so gaming will not be a problem, plus TV is as boring as hell. That leaves my online life as a temptation. It is too easy to go peek at a single picture and then find yourself spending the next two hours surfing aimlessly. This cannot be risked now.

Had this happened yesterday, I might not be making this move, as there was a particular person I have been trying to stick it out with in their time of need. Well, I have yet to prove any use to them. I cannot sit here and keep banging my head against the wall hoping something I do helps. You know who you are if you are reading this and I am sorry. I have screwed up so bad this weekend that I have to do this.

So no MSN either except in emergencies. (I do not even have AIM on this computer for those who have not seen me on there in over a month)

So before I go, you are probably wondering: What could I have possibly done to do all this drama? Well, early this morning, after weeks of struggling to finish my Mid-Term Project, I finished it. 100% of. It was all done and ready. But upon a simple file transfer from one part of my flash drive to another. I accidentily hit "X" instead of "C" and in a mix up of the commands, I lost all of my coding. I still have all the pictures I worked on, but long hours of coding and debugging are all gone. I tried several free recovery programs but they all brought them back corrupt. I tried trial software, but I have to purchase them to actually see the recovered file, so I do not know if it is corrupt or not. I am not going to pitch $50 here, $50 there just for the POSSIBILITY of recovering it. 25% of my grade is not worth that much money.

I am already doing well in this class, I have good grades, scored well on tests and so on. I still have a final to work on which I MUST get started on right away if I am going to do well to make up for this. The mid-term is already a week late. Spending another 18 hours for a highly reduced grade and sacrificing grades in my other classes just will not cut it. I have no choice but to go on and accept this blow.

Its funny actually... when I started that mid-term, early in the process my flash drive was stolen, losing everything I had made for it. Now, two weeks later it happens again. Well, as you can see, I did not learn well enough from the first mistake to make a proper backup of the files. So the blame rests entirely on me.

Well, I shall see you later. If something traumatic happens to me within these next six weeks, you will see me back sooner.



Because my DA family has always been my comfort in my most dire times of need. Thank you all for being there. *waves*

~Eclipsis

P.S. I want to stress this is not your same old good-bye forever journal. This is just temporary, not permanent. I am not doing this for attention. I just want proper explanation for a long absence rather then just disappearing here on DA all of a sudden.

And like before, if I watch you and you post a journal, I will likely not see it. I have a hard enough time keeping up with journal spams checking every couple days. When I come back, I will just delete them all. So if I am ignorant of something you do, that will be why.

There is a lot of drama out there, and I am ashamed I am apart of it. v.v'


<edit>Special note: A few of you know my private e-mail account on g-mail, particularly the people I have commissioned. If you need me, you can still contact me through there.</edit>