I hate making these types of journals. I feel like one of those drama fools out there. >_<' But here is the scoop anyways so you know my thoughts.

I had another breakdown/burnout today. Pretty bad one but not like that last one a few weeks back. I feel terrible physically/mentally. I cannot focus on my already two days late, major assignment that is only 2/3rds done.

What this does tell me though, as this is my Mid-Term Web Design project I am talking about, is that I have to be extremely careful what I pick for a Final Web Site for this class, as mentioned in the previous journal. So, I am 90% certain of my subject. A simple commissions/advertisement page for my artwork and stuff. Mostly using old and recycled images rather then making new ones. I simply do not have the time to make something new and shiny in 4 weeks, not with what all I have to do in other things.

The more important part of this class is the coding, not the artwork done for it. That is why I am taking this class. I know how to do the art sufficiently but not the coding.

~Eclipsis

In Web Design I, our final project is to do a fully functional and fairly detailed website to post on our college website. But I cannot decide what to do for it. Here are some of the ideas I have floating around.

~A portfolio of newly done pictures specifically for the site (would possibly include winter scenes, fur use (obviously), possibly space art (traditional and/or digital), maybe some steampunk/cyberpunk (my version of cyberpunk), and maybe some abstract.

~A tutorial for some media (undecided media).

~A simple Pokemon themed site with possible strategies for battling with certain Pokemon taken from a site or two. Just an excuse to do Pokemon pictures for them.

~A secret project comic I have been thinking about. Will not reveal details about this.

Those are the ones I can remember right now. I will not do a poll for suggestions for this, as everyone will vote for the tutorial one. It is a great idea, but I am not that crazy about actually doing one, especially in colored pencils.

Just bouncing some thoughts here.

~Eclipsis

Just an update. Gonna spare you all the drama. In short, I have made little/no progress on my homework due to various issues. (theft/game/sick/work)

If you had a journal in my inbox, I deleted it. Totally not going to sift through 160 journals. From some people I am thinking about just removing their journals from my watches. I swear, I get 2-3 journals a day from some individuals. v.v' Same goes with polls.

I try to be a little reserved with my journals and polls.

Anyways... I will probably spend more time away from DA to work on homework. I made the mistake of opening a new game I bought 3 weeks ago last week and now I am hooked on it. And it is one of those games it is not going to get old any time soon, unlike Pokemon Platinum which I could not stand after a week of on and off playing.

Any comments in my inbox I am likely not going to see today.

Art? I have done absolutely no art since I left. Seriously, none. I have the burning interest to, I just feel there are other things I would rather do. v.v' I keep my Skymin picture as my desktop. I want to be able to work on something like that again soon.

Until next time,
~Eclipsis

For reasons not directly related to my recent journal(s) I am going to try and spend some time away from DA, FA, and SA. I have taken too much of my homework time browsing around and chatting in messages. Often times working myself into a nervous wreck on my own from my own issues.

It is no ones fault except maybe mine, if even that. This vacation is mostly to keep myself on task with my homework for now. Maybe I will be back tomorrow night, maybe in a week, who knows. It depends on my bipolar mood.

It is October after all, the month my bipolar does its upheaval. I have been mostly fine except for some irregular sleep. Nothing catastrophic like in the past years.

So in a nutshell, this time away is not the result of someone saying, doing, or planning something against me. I stress this because I had several touchy conversations today with different people that might lead those individuals to think they were involved. No, no one was.

So see you all later. Maybe I will finish one or two pictures in the meantime. I have quite a few started, just my ADHD is keeping me from wanting to sit and finish just one of them.

~Eclipsis

<edit>AT this point, you can ignore the second part of this journal. That is old news now and I need to think about things.</edit>

Oh gosh, so many replies to my last journal. I have not gone through them all yet but I will read them all, like usual.

Anyone who knows me closely knows I am one of those dumb fools that is concerned about pageviews and popularity. Well, for months now I have been baffled about January of this year. I have never had a month like it, neither before or after. Twice the daily amounts spiked into the thousands.

For the longest time I figured it was because I had done a really good job with my art, after all, it was my most productive month in terms of sheer numbers. ^^

Well, now I know it is not true and can be said throughout most of the other days of that month. I just remembered I got two major exposures that month, hence the two spikes that do not correspond to my gallery views or favs on pictures uploaded then. The first spike I believe was the Great `hibbary's doing. She did that picture she dedicated to me and lots of people must have wandered over to see what was so special about me.

Three days later, it spiked again. This time it was, as one person called it, the "troll hunt" against me. I just call it the massive hate journal placed on LiveJournal just ripping heavily into me and a smidgen on the Great `hibbary herself. Oh gosh, bad memories. I was able to handle it for a while, but when a separate issue with an old friend blew up. I just buckled and cried.

We still do not talk to each other. Kinda hard when you are banned from their account. D:



This is a journal after all, these things on DA. I do treat it like one, keeping all the thoughts intact and rarely deleting them. It is my history, my past. I hope DA never passes a regulation that deletes old journals. That would be devastating to me. v.v'

~Eclipsis